UGH!!!!!!!!!!

Warning. . .I'm getting ready to ramble. I'll try to put together something sensible, but I'm not sure I'm capable. As I stated a couple of posts back, the wait time has been extended. Yesterday was an all-time low for me in this process. Why yesterday? Who knows!? I think it may have something to do with the fact that at one point in this process, I was looking at November or December as a REAL possibility for a referral. Call it wishful thinking or misplaced optimism or whatever you want, but now I'm just resigned to the fact that it's going to be a long wait. . . except, that's not true; I'm not resigned. I'm still desperately hopeful that the call will come sooner rather than later. I try to stay positive, and I try to put on a good face for people, but this is tough. Here's what I've decided for the moment. . .I'm no longer praying for patience. . . now I'm praying for peace, relief, and perspective. I'm so lucky in my life and so blessed, and I know this. . .I really do. The real possibility now exists that next year's Ethiopian court closure (August & September) could be a HUGE factor. Good grief!!!!

I do know that MY child will be ready when the time is right and only God will determine that time. So, why was yesterday so hard (and today only a little better)? UGH!!!!!!!!!